I didn’t really know Fall as a season until I moved to Alabama for college. The enormous trees started to change from deep hunter greens to bright oranges, yellows and reds around the middle of September, and stayed that way until Thanksgiving. I hadn’t experienced anything like this while growing up in the dry desert of West Texas.
The Pumpkin Spice Latte also made a grand appearance into my life the fall of my freshman year of college. I resisted the drink for a long time, but when I finally succumbed to curiosity and took my first sip, I was addicted just like the rest of the world.
This drink brought me comfort. It seemed to magically melt all my stress away. It was the first time I really remember my mood completely changing because of a beverage, or any food for that matter.
I started looking forward to my daily (yes, daily) Starbucks run during the fall season. The taste wasn’t what kept me coming,–it was the feeling I got from the drink. Warmth, comfort, and a sense of homeyness were all feelings that I longed for as a lonely college kid 1000 miles away from home.
My desire for this hot beverage helped me open up to really feeling connected to the food that I was eating. You see, at that time in my life, I was struggling with an eating disorder and would just stuff my face with anything I could get my hands on. I would also work out for HOURS on end, every day. I had stopped tasting food and connecting to it.
The story of my eating disorder is one that I haven’t mentioned on the blog. It is a large part of how I saw food for a long time, and I will be writing a few more posts on the subject in the future. But for now, I want to focus on how I reconnected to food, and that was because I finally allowed myself to feel something while eating.
I am trying to develop a similar kind of connection to all foods and everything that I eat. Instead of just throwing food on a plate and scarfing it down, I am trying to examine it by smelling it, tasting it raw, and then allowing myself to think about what flavor I am tasting. It has taken me a long time to get to this realization, so I am not rushing the process. My eating patterns were established a long time ago, so I have to be patient with myself and palate as I find connection.
What feelings do you get when you eat?
Not all foods are going to give you a comforting feeling like warm spices do, but I do think that each kind of food brings out a certain kind of feeling. For instance cold, sparkling water helps me feel energized while a burger gives me the sensation of being in sweat pants.
Since it is fall and warm spices are in full swing, I am finding comfort all around me, and not just with a pumpkin spice latte: but with pumpkin muffins, pumpkin curry, and pumpkin cocktails too. Yep, you read that right. We have a pumpkin spice cocktail that will give you ALL the feels.
Let us know what you think by leaving a comment in the section below.
- 1.5 ounces dark rum
- 2 ounces pumpkin simple syrup
- 2 ounces heavy cream
- ground cinnamon, for sprinkling
- cinnamon stick, for garnish
- Combine rum, pumpkin simple syrup, and cream in a shaker with ice.
- Shake thoroughly until combined.
- Pour into a martini glass, sprinkle cinnamon on top, and garnish with cinnamon stick.
- Bottoms up!